Thread:Sandgar/@comment-27447405-20170115044530/@comment-5429623-20170115051931

So I am seeing that I am not going to get unblocked. I know I did a lot of bad on TLH wiki. I know I screwed up a lot, and sometimes I can be an ass, and sometimes my views can hurt people's feelings, but I really just like you all to know that even though I can be unrulely, and sometimes get mad at others. I am not always that way. I am not perfect. No one is. People like Flash of Memory have seen my bad side just like you all. Situlations were different at Gravity Falls wiki. The reason I got banned so many times, was yes, I got mad about me not getting admin rights. But this all started because we were low of admin, and it was just hard to keep people from spamming. I used it for my own power wants. I am quite power hungry, but it is because I want change. Sometimes the want for power makes me crazy. I can't help it sometimes. Gravity Falls wiki, and Happy Tree Friend wiki at the times I joined both, were all about admins having the only say. Made me thing I had to be admin for any change. I made this wiki were you could speak up, and you could bring your opinion out. I wanted normal users to have a major part in the wiki. This whole belief is why I wanted to work on new wikis. Well Gravity Falls wiki fell apart on me because I angred the wrong people, pissed off the main admins, and not shutting up when I was suppose to. It gave me a bad reputation, and for the most part, I had half the wiki on my side, and half the wiki not. The main reason the wiki fell apart was because of my attacks on Flash of Memory over his constant womanizering, and the sexual harrassment of a user. We tried getting him demoted or even banned, but that only got a temporary removal of his rights. Me and him have never been on the same terms. For TLH wiki. I apologize to all the users who I have wrong, been rude to, or just pissed off. I really wish things didn't fall apart. I would of really liked to have known you all in a much better light. It all just fell down on me. After my demotion, and all the hurtful things people said about me, and the arrival of emma. I just couldn't take the stress from very low Internet, people constantly antagonizing me, and knowing a bunch of people didn't like me. I had a kind of mood spiral, and that is why I snapped when I did. I just couldn't take it anymore, and I just outbursted. Until very recently, I was on the discord even after my ban, and everything was going fine, until Flash of Memory came to head again, and Veenster warning me to stop, and I didn't stop, because I didn't want Juan to get away again with his dark past. So I got banned again, and now I am here. Writing this long explanatory thing. This probably will help no one vote to allow me to come back. I just hope you all do forgive me though. That is one thing I have a lot of blessings in. I can forgive almost anyone. I just hope you all can forgive me.